Blacker, Dekan

    So... It's been a minute. If I remember correctly the last email I sent was a few months ago. As much as I'd love to say I'll be writing more of these emails, I'm not going to promise anything; but you never know because I definitely haven't stopped learning and growing from the spirit since I've been home. Today however there's really only 2 things that I want to touch on.       The first thing is that I started a podcast, or at least I'm a part of a podcast. My best friend has really been the driving force behind it all, he's the one that's put in more of the time, money, and energy to make a good product. I mostly just help brainstorm topics and co-host, but nonetheless I highly recommend that you check it out especially if you've been missing seeing my emails. Naturally, I talk a lot about my mission, both in Utah and Texas, and the lessons I've been learning. The podcast is called, Walk with Him, which can be found anywhere that ...

     Sorry it's been so long since I've written an email, I've been putting it off because this is a difficult one to write and to accept. As the title suggests, I am officially home. I don't particularly want to be home, I wasn't expecting to be home, and I'm having trouble accepting that I'm home. This was a complete surprise to me, I didn't ask to go home or anything it was not on my mind in the slightest. President Johnson just woke me up one morning at 5:30 and was like, the spirit says you're going home. Wait what?! So we talked about it for a half an hour and then I asked when my flight was and that's when I was informed that it was at 8am and that I had 30 minutes to pack. So very surprising, very sudden, and very heartbreaking. I've put my entire heart and soul into Layton Utah for the past 14 months and to have it snatched from me so quickly was incredibly difficult to process. So I decided to go right back to Layton after getting h...

      These last 2 weeks have just kinda gone by with nothing too crazy to speak of; however I'll share what's notable.       I continue to be getting better and better and more and more ready to go proselyting. Right now, I'm thinking another 2ish weeks before I go back, but we'll see what happens. One thing I'm realizing more and more is that the transition back to proselyting is not going to be an easy one. I don't even think it matters how long I wait to go back to proselyting because it'll be difficult either way. I'm truthfully pretty scared to go back because I'm afraid of the pain, but I know that it'll be where I'm happiest. I just have to get past the wall, which is a much easier wall to get around than the one that I just did because sheesh that was so hard.        You guys helped me get over the wall though; and I'm so grateful for all of you guys for helping and supporting me. Something really super duper cool that happened ...